I get to run away to Europe tomorrow. I just finished packing (go figure... the night before. One day I will learn to be organized and will overcome my strong desire to procrastinate. But probably not really) and I am just waiting for my travel buddies to arrive. I feel like this trip took forever to get here, yet I know that it is going to fly by way too fast - three and a half weeks will only feel like a few days.
I am very excited to see my parents. Eight months is far too long to go without seeing your family and I am very excited to just hang out with them. I am also very excited to travel with Luke and Erin. They are both simply amazing people and I can't wait to hang out, explore, learn and grow with them.
This summer has been a very strange one. Other then working 40 hours a week, I have also watched 6 of my friends get married, standing up as a bridesmaid for two of them. I am only twenty (one in less than a month), and feel so young still. Part of me feels as if I am falling behind - though mostly I don't know what to feel since I am fairly certain that marriage is not in the cards for another 5 years (absolutely minimum.. can you put a time constraint on that though?). I don't feel pressure to get married, I am just having a little trouble figuring out how to adjust to a life where all of my closest friends are married - how will that change our relationship? or even, how will that change me?
I think that most of this comes from the fact that I am not in school right now. Summer is always a little difficult - especially if I am not being engaged intellectually or traveling somewhere to escape the mundane life of work here. I feel so at home at school, and my life has direction and meaning when I am learning. When I don't have school I get antsy and ask stupid questions like 'when am I getting married?' or 'what will my wedding look like?' When I am in school I don't feel compelled to ask these questions and I am perfectly content.
I am very much looking forward to this coming year. It will be my fourth (When did that happen?) and I think that, though it promises to be incredibly intense, it will be the best I've had yey. I got into my Paleography and Bibliography class, as well as Senior Seminar where I will write my thesis (am I even old enough to do that.. I do not feel qualified). I am sure that my devotion to this blog will increase tenfold during this time as I always seem to write better (about nothing) when I am suppose to be writing about something else.
Enough for tonight, though hopefully I will not be as delinquent in my posts as I have been. I will update during my trip for sure!
Cheers